|
|
Pretty Wasted Lies
storyline
Furbee. B Holt. Britgina.
I'm a nut, and somehow people love me for it.
I'm gross and unladylike and really don't care.
I live through photography, music, hope, film, Sheetz Mocha, and hair scissors.
I love babies and surprises, and wear high heels when I exercise.
My walls are covered with pictures of pretty people in pretty clothes, standing pretty and making pretty faces.
I love the feel of the air at 7:45PM in the summertime.
I'll kick your ass in pool, especially if you talk shit about me being a girl.
Oh yeah, and I'm also into kickboxing.
I'm a vegetarian for the animals and for health.
I hate flying but want to travel around the world, primarily to Africa and Iceland.
And make a documentary, or photo journal.
I want to see the Northern Lights.
I cut/dye hair often, my own and others.
I'm a whore for makeup and fashion, what can I say.
I have a love for California and all the sin it represents, and plan to Santa Monica after college.
I'm a sophomore at UNC-Greensboro.
A lot of my favorite words start with the letter "e".
Eloquent, endearing, endure, and effigy.
And sometimes escape.
I am terrified of most things and frightened of the dark.
I like to spoon, cuddle and sink down inside of blankets, sprawled across the bed.
I wish upon the stars.
I learned that wishes do come true.
I'm nothin' but a hopeless romantic.
Being outside is amazing, especially stargazing in Morganton, or just chilling on top of a mountain.
I live for random late night drives.
To where? We'll figure that out when we get there.
scripts
1. The Notebook
2. He's Just Not That Into You
3. The Idiot Girls Action-Adventure Club
4. Running With Scissors
5. The Death and Life of Charlie St. Cloud
cast members
Emily
Jessika
Nikki
Patrick
Mikey
Kory
soundtrack
1. The Appleseed Cast
2. Pete Yorn
3. Jens Lekman
4. CocoRosie
5. Hope for aGoldensummer
misc.
Layout design by: Siren Graphics
| [ |
userinfo |
| |
livejournal userinfo |
] |
| [ |
calendar |
| |
livejournal calendar |
] |
|
|
|
| I'm not for sale anymore |
[27 Jun 2006|05:10pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 bored |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
CocoRosie |
] |
I've had this journal for like 2 years now, and I wanted a new name, and layout.
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) lo_frequencies
I made the shitty layout myself and it about took forever, because I have no life.
Add me there if you like, dear friends!
|
|
| Drive until you lose the road |
[02 Jun 2006|10:23pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 flirty |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Tilly and the Wall |
] |
Life without my laptop is going well. Yesterday I took it in and said my "bye for now". I still have the 'K' that the guy popped off. I'm such a dork. Then I... downloaded some music, went jogging with Nikki and ran into Marc, and humped him. Heh. Then we chilled at her house for a while. I'm in North's yearbook this year! It's a picture from my senior prom, and it's so embarrassing.. but an accurate representation of prom. Anyways. Chilled there and came home and watched some Big Love, read, talked to Kory, and went to bed. Today I cleaned my car and added a few stickers, watched some TV, ate at Ishi's with Christine, and walked around the mall some.
Tomorrow will be great. I'm going to Morganton and get to cuddle/harrass/kiss/squeeze Kory. YAAAAY lol.
I'm eating healthier lately, and not snacking at all or eating sweets. I tried to go into Whole Foods tonight and buy some organic shhtuff, but they were closing, and I'm not THAT guy that goes into stores when it's closing time and makes employees hate me. I'm working out a lot too, mostly kickboxing, which I loooove. It passes the time and gets me in shape for the beach in July. (Oh, my cousin and his wife are taking me to the beach with them for a week in July, and renting a house. Of course, though, I'm there to help watch Nicholas and babysit some. But hey, free beachness, and maybe they'll feed me some.... maybe.)
I really miss "the open road"; driving around randomly, getting lost occasionally, and just blaring music. My cars been on E for a few days... but I gotta get gas tomorrow to get to Morganton. If only the highway was more scenic. I do get to drive past Braughton Mental Hospital on the way into town though... *cringe* That place just looks creepy. It's gonna suck when I'm thrown in there one day lol.
|
|
| I adore a girl like you |
[26 May 2006|11:48pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 envious |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Pete Yorn - A girl like you |
] |
One more chance.
we were passers on the street,
don't turn it into grief,
just follow me into disaster,
you'll fall.
|
|
|
[12 Apr 2006|09:00pm] |
I AM SO EMO CRY CRY CRY
I WANT TO CRRYYYYYYY
BUT!!!!!!
CONOR OBERST!
MY SOOOUULLLLMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATE
KISSKISSKISSKISSCRYKISSKISSKISS
i love patrick sweatt and hate everyone else. everyone.
|
|
|
[06 Apr 2006|01:46am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 giddy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
silence |
] |
TEEHEE!!!
*gigglesnort*
|
|
|
[21 Feb 2006|10:40pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 cranky |
] |
If you knew me any better, you could tell this was all a cover-up.
|
|
| She goes to California, oh |
[19 Jul 2005|11:20pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 bouncy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Des Ark |
] |
"Maybe we shouldn't have a dyke cow."
*holds jessika's ass in precarious position while drawing heart on it* "Maybe we shouldn't act like dykes around my aunts. I feel that's offensive..."
At 10:46 tomorrow morning, we are gone.
...To California until 11:34 Tuesday night.
You'll miss me, right? Ha.
If you want a postcard, leave me your address if I don't already have it. THANKS!!! <33333333333
|
|
|
[16 Jul 2005|06:22pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
cranky |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Aqualung - Good times gonna come |
] |
I've been trying to be where you are
I've been secretly falling apart
Unseen
Take my Aqualung away from me. It makes me depressed.
I hate being in bad moods. Especially an hour before a party. I bring it upon myself, and make myself miserable. I also get scared when things are too comfortable and perfect and feel the need to create problems in my mind that don't exist. The cursed 3 months. We haven't made it past, and it's the true test. I need to know if you're letting go.And I'm a greedy attention whore. I play perfect moments and scenarios over in my head and my dreams, but the syndicated version wouldn't be as surprising and wonderful if it was shown in real life.
We go to California in about 3 and a half days. I'm so excited, but it doesn't show. I'm hoping to find some strength and inspiration out there. Something to push me forward and make me change.
Taking naps with little babies is awesome. It's so peaceful and sweet. If only everything were like that.
|
|
| You're strange and you're beautiful |
[10 Jul 2005|09:10pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
bored |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Aqualung |
] |
I had an eventful Saturday night. And Friday too for that matter. Jessika and I went dorm shopping Friday, and got lots of pretty things. It's gonna suck when our loans don't come through and we don't get to go to college though. Anywhore, we then ate yumtastic food at Bonefish where I confirmed my literacy and watched PEENQUEEENSSSSSS. Headed over to Border's, and stuffed ourselves with cookies. Went to McDonald's and talked about how I looked pregnant in my shirt. Hot. Ran into some peoples, then Jessika and I headed home to watch Beavis and Butthead. Saturday was as follows, because ( I know you love my picture posts. )
|
|
| shuffleee |
[06 Jul 2005|07:49pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 content |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
lots of songs |
] |
I'm copying jackie. 1st 10 seconds of every song in my damn library. Jessika: I'm taking a nap... this is gonna take awhile.
I can't imagine all the people that you know, and the places that you go, when the lights are turned down
I'll be your dream I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy. I'll be your hope I'll be your love, be everything that you need.
Tireness fuels empty thoughts. Find myself
somewhere over the rainbow way up hiiiiiiiiiiigh
say the things you say, when you're dreaming like you do. you know sometimes circles run around you. hey now let's be honest..
we sent out the SOS call, it's a quarter past 4 in the morning when the storm broke our second anchorline. 4 months at sea.
ooooo what's it like there outside with the living, with the living.
Big wheels keep on turning, carry me home to see my kin. singin
trying hard to speak and fighting with my weak hand. driven to distraction, all part of
outline of the storyboard with no idea. head first in the shallow end and I'm sorry
broadway is dark tonight. a little bit weaker than it used to be. broadway is dark tonight
I am heaven sent, don't you dare forget. I am all you
hey, are you lonely, summer goin so slowly
rahrah RAHHHHHHHHHH in the backDOOORRRRRRRRR, and i'm leaving you the way I think
tell me what you thought about when you were gone and so alone, the worst is over. you can have the best of me.
I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head, where I would impress you
Keep the noise low, she doesn't wanna blow. Shaking from head to toe, and the left hand did the show me around.
there's a place off ocean avenue where I used to sit and talk to you. We were both 16 and it felt so right
she greets the day with her hair wet. she asks them to vacate the building because she's got a plan
you cut me down a tree and brought it back to me, and that's what made me see where I was going
How long I'll wait just to say goodbye. 10 different ways to
I'm an effigy, a parody of who I appear to be, put your
days bunch up into weeks, collaborate into months, mumble mumble..
sleep now, moon, I'll watch over her while the sun is up and you'll have
I am terrified of all things
I calm the crowd and pick you out, my mouth moves too fast for you to figure it out. it starts eyes closed, 2 fingers crossed
she doesn't come from east of west, your body free or no less, in the moment
pixies tuggin at your hair, pixies tuggin
you thought that I don't trust you, I just know what you've been up to.
looking back a lot has changed, never thought there'd come a day, when everything we used to
when I was a young boy I tried to listen and I wanna feel like
I was fast asleep, dreaming I was rain, i fell
and I heard a voice through the discord of the dangers of passersby, I saw one gaze
mmmmMMmMMmmmmmMMmMMMMmmMMMmMMMmmmm Men reading fashion magazines, oh what a world it seems we live in. straight men
she said don't... don't let it go to your head. boys like you
I am thinking it's a sign, that the freckles in our
And there's 3, count em 3, children playing on the beach, they were eager
always when we fight, I tried to make you laugh, until everythings forgotten, I know you hate that
sunrise, sunset, sunrise, sunset, swiftly go the days, sunrise
There's a car outside, we stalk the idle kind, if you're leaving just let me know. tobacco and peppermint
we're wondering what you're thinking, arthur nix. cuz ever since you rode your bike into that car
if you find yourself here on my side of town, I pray that you'd come
whatever poisons in this bottle will it be broken, sore and stiff. there's a genie at the bottom who I'm suckin at
so sick, so sick of being tired and oh so tired of being sick. we're both such terrible liars
i see a sense of wonder deep inside your eyes, as we're sparkling and twirling in the twightlight
your lipstick his collar, don't bother angel, i know exactly what goes on
you've got your ball, you've got your chain tied to me tight, tie me up
everything I.. you are.. everything I.. once had.
hey amanda, where'd you find these crazy boys this time. they say youre pretty but you don't think they're right.
Said I'm gonna buy this place and burn it down, I'm gonna put it 6 feet under.
Am I loud and clear or am I breaking up. Am I still your charm or am I breaking up. Are we getting closer or are we
Hold me back tomorrow, hold back in the ballroom swinging. Hold me back with my superman action
She says she's no good, with words but I'm worse. I stutter and I joke of a romantic verse stuck to my tongue.
You do that romeo, be what you wanna be. Look like youre running in place, do that stupid dance for me.
There's no consolation prize. There's no prize for consolation. I'm stuck in the middle, between hoodies
dear i fear we're facing a problem, you love me no longer, i know and maybe
hey mister, I really like your daughter. I'd like to eat her like ice cream, maybe dip her in chocolate
there is hope for us, there is distance between you and I. we have just enough
aim, smap, fall, the bitter wind weaved
i believe in medication and I believe in therapy and I believe in crystal
*icelandic song recorded backwards....*
gold teeth and the curse for this town.
she said missed the train to mars, she's out back counting stars.
if you're going to san franciscoooooo, be sure to wearrrrr
we might kiss, when we are alone.
what the world needs now is love sweet love, it's the only thing that there's just
Take what you can carry and the rest we will destroy. summers gonna wreck us, gonna crush
there's plenty of time left tonight, I promised I'd have you home before daylight
don't know what I was looking for when I went home. I found me alone.
could you whisper in my ear the things you wanna feel? I'd give you anything to feel
Look at the stars, look how they shine for yoouuuu, and everthing
Wow that took an hour.... I give up.
|
|
| Ask me what it's like to have myself so figured out.... wish I knew. |
[02 Jul 2005|01:23pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 crushed |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Brand New |
] |
I fucking hate everything right now. For once I thought I could be happy, but of course not. I'm never ever ever ever ever making plans again. Because if a plan is made more than an hour in advance, it will fall through. And I know this one couldn't be helped but grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR I'm tired of this always happening to me. And then I'm left with nothing to do, because everyone else has plans that actually HAVEN'T fallen through, because I'm cursed. I just wanted a date in my pretty new skirt, with my love, but no. And another thing that pisses me off? Victoria's Secret. I'm sorry but why fucking hire me if I'm literally going to get no hours, and when I do have a set shift, they call and tell me they don't need me. So in my past oh, 3 weeks of employeement, I've worked ONE FUCKING SHIFT, and that was to cover for Annah. God I didnt get a job just to use the discount (which I already did, dammit, and spent more than I've made there thus far) and sit around calling every other day to see if they need me. GODDDDDD. Everytime I spend weeeekkkss looking for a job, I get one or think I do, but then have to turn around and look for another one. And I'm going to Cali soon and would like money for that, and that's gonna take out a week of "potential hours" and then I'll be moving to Greensboro for college like 2 weeks after that. AHHHHHHH I'm not in my happy place at all right now. The 4th of July better not fall through, or I'm going to that lake and drowning myself.
NOTHING IS FUCKING DEFINITE. NOT EVEN LIFE.
|
|
| your hands up on my booty |
[29 Jun 2005|03:02am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 cudddleeeee |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
aqualung |
] |
Today was pretty random. Woke up, went to my aunts, ate lunch, sat there for a lonngggg time and watched fuse, because I'm a cripple. My back is still aching, my legs are still sore from working in heels, and to top that off, I slid down my front steps this morning and busted my right hip/ass/leg on 2 steps and a ceramic pot. Then Tyler came and stole me and we got ice cream. After a while of him driving around and jumping in random neighborhood swimming pools, I started to get un-emo and cheer up some. We then went back to his house and ate dinner with the fam. Then Tyler, his lil brother, and I took Logan the Ferret to play at West's football field. We get there and it's almost dark, and a sprinkler is going on the field, which is already soaking wet and muddy. So we let Logan loose and frolic in the mud and water, and play soccer. We get all gross, lose Logan a few times, and then head home. On comes ferret bathtime; the 3rd greatest time in the world... next to feeding time and naptime. He's so cudderly. Hahaha.
Tomorrow I'm going to a modeling open call. Hopefully it won't suck like all the other ones I've been too, and they won't be like "Hey, give us money and we'll rip you off."
( A day in the life of Logan el ferreto )
|
|
| Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words |
[28 Jun 2005|01:53am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 contemplative |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Sigur Ros - Svefn-G-Englar & Starslfur |
] |
Sigur Ros is my reason for life. Seriously. I can't wait until their concert in September.
I saw Batman Begins today, and it was amazing. If you haven't seen it, please do so. One of the main bad guys, Dr. Crane (aka the scarecrow), graduated from NCSA.
I worked at Victoria's Secret yesterday, in heels, and now my legs are killing me. Never doing that again.
My updates are very boring lately, and rare, but I'm hardly online or on my computer much anymore, unless I'm writing.
Jessika got her ticket to California now, so I'm not going alone! WOO! It sucks my aunt is all "we aren't night owls. We're usually in bed by 10. You can't drive our cars. We aren't dropping you off in Hollywood or anywhere else. You're stuck with us." But I guess she feels responsible if anything were to happen. Oh well, we'll make the most of it.
Poor Sherman.. I'm a horrible person. Survival of the fittest though. Fuck Darwin for being right sometimes.
Rise Against - "Swing Life Away" is becoming one of my anthems now.
We live on front porches and swing life away
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave 'til the end
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand
I've been here so long I think that it's time to move
The winter's so cold summer's over too soon
Let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow
And I've got some friends some that I hardly know
We've had some times I wouldn't trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go
|
|
| We feel like rain when the words all sound the same |
[17 Jun 2005|06:44pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 crazy |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
nick drake |
] |
These past few days have been sorta random. Jessika and I went down to the lake on Tuesday and tanned/splashed around. Later that night, I ended up sitting alone at Reynolda Gardens, watching the sunset and writing. I then drove around town for a long time and headed home. Got in a little minifight with Tyler because I'm crazy and just needed some space. We concluded we'd spend Wednesday and the next few days hanging with friends and stuff. So Wednesday, Andy IMs me and we decided to go get foodage and ice cream. After ice cream, we see Ms. Chelsi and she tells us to jump in the back of a truck with her, and we ride around illegally. It was fun! Then we stalk Danielle at work and head to Border's. Roll up, and there's Tyler! The night was weird, and we're both crazy, and then I cried in the parking lot. Gah. Thursday we all hang out at Andy's while they jam. Tyler, Danielle, and I go get chinese and then see Guess Who, which is like.. the funniest movie ever. Then Tyler and I proceeded to actually have a GOOD experience in a parking lot for once lol.
( contempt loves the silence )
|
|
| Moving at the speed of sound |
[09 Jun 2005|08:40pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 cheerful |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Coldplay |
] |
I am now severely indebt after returning my new digicam to get a better one, and purchasing my laptop. But they're both hot, so I'll deal. Hopefully I get my Victoria's Secret job!!
My mom said today, about my dad "All this time I've been with him, you're the only good thing that's happened." ....... I dunno how that made me feel. It was weird. She has so must frustration and hate towards him, yet they stay together and never "fight".
My mom also said how people have apparently been asking if I was pregnant or not. OMG. So note to self: If you have a boyfriend and throw up for a day straight *because of strep throat*, you're pregnant. Geezus. I'm glad to know my family things so highly of the status of my virginity and decisions.
|
|
| Can we take a ride and get out of this place? |
[24 May 2005|10:44pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 blah |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Imogen Heap - "Hide and Seek" |
] |
I need to get out of here.
I haven't felt like this in a while. It was just a really bad day.
I'm tired of the same old situations, and the same old battles, and the same old ME. I need alone time. I think I'll drive down to the beach by myself sometime next week. I could use an escape. I need to get away from the internet and everyone. I always feel like people are always wanting something from me, when I can't even give myself what I need. But instead, most times I give them whatever they need and sacrifice my own needs, because that's who I am. I'm tired of it.
Tyler was right. Real life is better than the internet.
Graduation is in 3 days. I'm scared, and I'm not ready for any of this.
Love is just a chemical.
I really hate my jealousy and self-pity. GRRRR.
|
|
| For all time. |
[24 May 2005|12:44am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 loved |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Damien Rice |
] |
I've never been more happy than I am now....
Jessika's birthday this weekend was AWESOME. I'll post pictures one day when I'm not so... lazy and busy.
Graduation cookout Saturday at Horizon's park. Everyone should come out.
Heh. Closer wasn't so bad....
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
|
|
|
|
tired
mellow